This Awkward Stage

It’s like wishing you’re just trapped in a horrible dream. You sure can see how off things really are but you can’t quite get your way out of it.

Several weeks of hurdling with life and too fidgety to blog, nevertheless even if this is my only post for November, it is disappointing to say that I couldn’t come up with something uplifting.

Life lately,  is like I, helplessly spinning down the rugged treacherous hill, ending up a total wreck.

Here’s a girl, constantly struggling to get back on her feet from the trampled ground she’s in. But why does it always seems like even fate does not allow it?

Failing a test, getting rid of a (recent) bad habit, hating and loving work in  between, running away from a pointless unrequited-love-drama, trying to gain a stray cat’s trust to make it as a pet  (haha) and waiting for this unpredictable “cloud hair” to grow few inches more.  Need I say more? Here are few pictures as of late.

 

pixie cut gets unruly, “awkward ugly stage” and waiting for it to grow

And if the day won’t last….

Worst, when life blatantly slaps you that you’re never really good for anything. I’ve been running this blog for quite some time now and then why of all things, writing fail me? Awkward, it is. I guess I’m not really good at writing after all. I just believed I was.

Right now, I’m still nursing a bruised ego, picking up the few chips of confidence left, thinking what went wrong (everything is, actually), sobbing prayers at night and mapping a new plan for this life. This tormenting life that left me no choice but to live it the best way I can.

I don’t sound too good, I know.  At times, I just want to drown in this dreadful nightmare and never wake up anymore. Second chances rarely come but I’d still want to grab all that there is. Meanwhile, how about be  drenched  into this song from U2?

   “It’s just a moment, this time will pass”.

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